Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Hematology...

When it was discovered that my white blood cell count had dropped to under 3.5 parts per million per liter I was referred to the hematology department at Dartmouth Hitchcock Keene. Given that I have taken so much time off following my success at The Circle Triathlon I have been attributing my fatigue on runs to my lack of fitness. Obviously something is or was wrong with my blood so it was very important that I keep this appointment.

I was in high spirits all morning and mostly just figured that I was going to another doctor appointment at another office and that nothing would be solved. Walking into the Norris-Cotton cancer clinic was one of the most abruptly sobering experiences in my life. Clearly I was not in Kansas anymore.

After checking in at reception my senses went in to a super hyper sensitive mode that made the experience even more surreal. As soon as I sat down I was instantly hit with the feeling that I had seen a ghost when a man obviously on an off cycle of chemotherapy desperately clutched trekking poles to walk to the reception counter. I could feel my heart race and all of the color leave my face. Fight or flight is an incredible evolutionary response but what happens when you have to sit and wait to face your fear. Moments later another women bearing the bald head of cancer treatment walked to reception. Sitting there watching this brave women make an appointment to show up and get poisoned within an inch of her life in a desperate ploy to cleanse her body of this vicious attacking disease. Somehow still managing the summon the strength to march on with their lives in the heart of this great battle. An instant dose of perspective hit me like an out of control semi and the arbitrary worries of athletic endeavor felt more like a selfish pursuit driven by vanity. There are so many incredibly brave people fighting for every day right under our noses!

With an imagination that lies somewhere to the left of Where the Wild Things are my mind raced with thoughts and worries. I tried every trick in the book to put the word cancer out of my mind but somehow it crashed back in like a guillotine severing every positive thought with the images of the sick. Surrounded by the sick some struggling for every breath and being keenly aware of every inch of my own physical and mental limitations presented a paradox that I could not process. Hours, mph, splits, and mileage were a foreign currency in this land and I was clueless about the exchange rate.

Finally I was able to meet with Dr. Steve Larmon himself a runner about my current woes. Steve is unquestionably the best doctor that I have ever met and had an assuring bedside manner that instilled safety through reason. The exam lasted nearly an hour and I walked away with mind boggling amounts of respect for Steve and his colleagues in Hematology. Basically Steve is a detective that searches for clues to put together the puzzle of what is happening in blood. We talked at length and reviewed extensive charts that showed the history of my blood work. One interesting detail is that leading up to the Vermont City Marathon in 2010 my hematocrit was 50%! A great stat for any endurance athlete and an obvious marker of natural elemental genetic luck. Aside from my white blood cell count my numbers are the picture of health so Steve believes that I need not worry. Steve's best hypothesis at this point is that I had a virus over the summer possibly similar to epstein-barr and only noticed the symptoms because of my high activity level. Steve wants to stay on the path of full understanding so we are going to continue to monitor my blood levels for the next couple of months. If the WBC continues to decline we will take a more in depth look at what is happening by examining the bone marrow. If the numbers rise and I continue to feel ok as volume and intensity increase we will chalk it up to a virus.

Undoubtably this was a sobering experience that will have a lasting impact on that way I tally wins and losses. When I get my lab results in a few days I will give an update to keep everyone informed.

Cheers,

Mark

Monday, September 26, 2011

Week I...

Monday: PM Five mile run from my new house in Marlborough. Down to the rail bed and back. Seventeen minutes out and eighteen minutes back! Big hill! I love living on the edge of aggressive terrain. I spied a trail off the rail bed up the mountain that I suspect may connect to the trail network off of my back woods. Once The Demon is up and running I may do a little serious recon work. Snowshoe party at my house this winter! (35 min.)

Tuesday: Up early and had some Italian roast to get the party started. Headed into the basement at 5:45 for a easy half hour on The Soloist on the trainer. Felt pretty good and mostly stayed easy. Listened to STP Purple which was the first cd I ever bought back in 1994! Great album loaded with super song. After work, walking Eko, and some blogging I headed out for the same five miler as yesterday. Ran faster but felt WAY worse! (1 hr.)

Wednesday: Up early again for another thirty minute spin on The Soloist. Felt ok but my legs were a little slow. Soundgarden Superunknown on the iPod. Afternoon forty minute hilly run with Mary around some new trails. Epic views of Monadnock and found some hills that would be perfect for working out on. (70 min.)

Thursday: Up early again for another thirty minute spin on The Soloist. Listened to STP Tiny music for the first time in forever. Brought me right back to the summer of 1996. In the afternoon I did a new out and back from the house up stone pond road. According to sources at work Stone Pond is a great open water swim spot and as residents we have access! Up hill nearly the whole way out. Ran out twenty minutes and turned around because I did not want to run to much to soon. According to the pervious owner the pond is 4.5 miles from the house. (70 min.)

Friday: Up early for a ride on The Soloist. Listened to Temple of the Dog, The Yea Yea Yeas, and My Morning Jacket. I have been riding pretty easy all week so the last five minutes I worked pretty hard on the drops and got the heart rate up pretty high. We had Andy and Tat over for dinner so no afternoon run. (30 min.)

Saturday: Crazy and hectic day. Only managed an hour ride on The Soloist. Rode with the heart rate monitor for the first time to keep my effort level low. First thirty-minutes were moderate between 127 bpm and 155 bpm. I did a five minute interval to max HR (190) assuming that my starting point is based on 220 minus age. Felt solid but lactate built in the last few seconds. Spun the rest of the way around 150 bpm. (1 hr.)

Sunday: I did my first hour long run this morning up to Stone Pond and back. Steady climbing the first half of the run steady decent on the way back. I live in runners paradise! All but eight minutes of my run was on trail or dirt road. Spied a few trails off the road that I am looking forward to trying out. (1 hr.)

Total: 6 hours and 25 minutes for the week.

I feel optimistic about this first week of training. I really like the messages that my legs were giving to me on the bike Friday and Saturday. Additionally my run on Sunday was great. I am going to raise my mileage into the mid forties this week and ride my bike six days again so my goal for hours will be slightly higher. I will also start recording my additional core and strength work.

Mark

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Square one...

For a number of reasons including my current flu like symptoms I feel like I am headed back to square one of training. The Summer of Mark has apparently crashed and burned into Fall of Inactivity. On top of my various health issues buying a home for the first time really is the most stressful thing ever. Fortunately the house front is wrapping up this weekend as we undertake our massive move one last time. On a side note if anyone wants to help on Saturday feel free to stop by Grove Street anytime on Saturday. Given that I have roughly had the equivalent of a month off I think I will be heading back to square one with my training. My baseline goal is going to be to run five miles a day and get on the bike for at least thirty minutes before work ever day. Obviously my fitness is just below the surface and a few weeks of solid base training should bring me back in no time. I will admit that I am incredibly frustrated right now and am insanely jealous of my training partners that are having tremendous starts to their fall seasons. Greg threw down a nice little pr last weekend at the 50k, and Fyffe is in another world right now. I don't think anyone will be surprised if this guy drops a 2:17 in a few weeks! Anyways I really hope to get back to regular posting as soon as the move is finished up.

Here's to getting healthy!

Mark

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

A Break in the Action...

Following The Circle Triathlon life went into warp speed with school starting, the house, and my grandmother passing so I decided that a pause was in order. Even though I feel amazing after nine days off I was a massive ball of stress with my lack of exercise. As we have all seen in the past if I don't cope with activity I can nearly loose my marbles. Coming out of the break I feel amazing! Today marked a positive start with a three mile morning run before work, an aggressive thirty minute ride on The Vulture averaging 23.3 mph, followed directly by another four mile run. Right now I am going to focus on establishing a rhythm and making an all out assault on the individual title at The Pinnacle Challenge next moth.

Cheers,

Mark

Monday, September 5, 2011

The Circle Triathlon...

Sunday morning I competed in the greatest local race in New Hampshire, The Circle Triathlon. The Circle program provides underprivileged area girls with the ability to step out of their comfort zones and attend week long overnight summer camps. The race has a great list of sponsors including The Common Man restaurant and Squam Marina. Needless to say the location is incredible which only adds to the quality of the race. The fact that the race starts and finishes a mile from Mary's parents house in Ashland makes the race a perfect fit. On top of all of that the course features the most difficult bike leg that I have ever seen at a triathlon, featuring multiple climbs and several high speed descents. Given that I have not been feeling 100% for some time I was hoping to turn things around and have a positive end to the triathlon season. Fortunately this week with the aid of several nutritional supplements I have started to feel significantly better.

We arrived in Ashland Friday afternoon and after unloading The Vulture I decided to do a recon run on the course and see what kind of numbers I was capable of producing. More than anything I was psyched because I felt great on the training ride. My legs were producing power for the first time in weeks and I was riding at speeds that I have not seen since Surry. I really wanted to experiment with the course so I decided to make an all out attack on the hills of Mt. Chocura. I felt great for the duration of the training ride and managed a 22.3 mph average which given the hills felt mildly impressive. Following the ride I headed right out with Mary for a five mile run around Ashland. My legs felt like bricks on the run from hammering the climbs so I started thinking about my strategy for Sunday morning. I decided that giving away some time on the uphills and spinning a low gear in the saddle would leave me fresher for the flats of the final quarter of the bike leg and mostly flat run leg. At dinner Friday night I predicted that a 21.8 mph average would be the key to winning the race.

Sunday morning I was up early for a pretty standard pre-race breakfast and mug of coffee. I packed up and rode down to the race shortly before 7:00. Set-up was a breeze and I scoped out a few athletes that I thought would present a challenge. The Circle organizes their start waves based on when you enter so there were a couple of athletes in the first two waves that would make for interesting carrots. I was in the third wave so I was four minutes down on the first wave and two minutes down on the second wave. There was one particular athlete in the second wave that I was dead set on catching and destroying. He was one of these young triathlon guys that just stinks of arrogance with his USA uniform, visor, and Hed Wheels. Not that I am motivated by anger but I wanted nothing more than to light this guy up!

At the start of the swim I felt great and managed to remember everything that I have been working on in the pool. As the waves were starting I found myself feeling unbelievably nervous. I figured that since I had been feeling so terrible that I would let myself feel a little uneasy hearing into the challenge. I was itching to start so I could figure out if I was finally feeling better. At the horn and into my dolphin dive I got right to work and started harder than I typically do in a race. I could tell instantly that I was one of the better swimmers in the wave and set to finding a clear path around the 400-meter course. I swam really wide lines to avoid the crowd of the other waves and felt great and felt that I was having a super swim. As I turned for the shore I made my only mistake of the swim leg. I misheard which side of the last buoy to swim around so I took a terribly inefficient line the last straight. My best guess is that my mistake cost me twenty seconds but in hindsight I had clear water the whole way to shore. I beached in 6:56 which was a full minute and a half faster than last year so I was off to a good start. Running to the transition I had an amusing thought. At this point in the race with the way the waves are structured I was just a face in the crowd. Hundreds of athletes of all ability levels were coming and going out of the water as I was set to get to work on the bike.

Grabbing The Vulture off the rack I was itching to get to work. I love the prospect of a difficult bike leg and the challenge that it presents. Heading out of the transition I slipped on the pavement but quickly recovered and I was off. Passing Mary I said my favorite line from Step Brothers so she would know that I was on a good day. In the early rollers of the course I felt solid and was already catching a lot of other racers. I was feeling great which was such a pleasant and mildly unexpected surprise! At the base of the first major climb I rode on the aero bars until I was ready to drop down to the small chain ring. I instantly got to work on my plan of spinning up the climbs in the saddle thus saving my legs. Spinning is great but it put my heart rate through the roof and I was looking forward to cresting the first climb as soon as possible. Following a short false flat on top of the climb the course plunges down a long steady descent of freshly paved winding country road that is perfect for speed. I peaked down before the road tilted upward and noticed that I riding forty miles per hour. I was putting a lot of effort into relaxing my breathing and exhaling as much C02 as possible heading into the second climb which is a two part climb that would take eight to ten minutes. The second half of the climb is Bridge of Flowers steep which on a time trial bike is torture. Cresting that climb there was a rider fifty meter in front of me which made me a little nervous heading into the fastest most technical descent on the entire course. Starting to drop I committed to staying on the aero bars and ignoring the two flag men cautioning me to slow down. I dared a quick glance at the computer and saw forty-eight miles per hour which made me nervous and invigorated in the same instant. Onto the flats again I flashed by the rider ahead of me in the blink of an eye. Onto Winona I had my only mental lapse of the day. Finishing off yet another climb I somehow zoned out and lost my rhythm for a few seconds. When I came to I even thought that my rear break was rubbing because I was going so slow. I rebounded fast and made quick work of the last serious climb. I kept to the plan and went to work hammering the flats back into Ashland. Turing onto Thompson Street I could see a rider up ahead and figured that I must be approaching the front of the race. I was super aggressive the last mile of the bike leg and took significant time out of the distant figure who ended up being Mr. condescending, USA, visor guy. Off the bike I stole one last look at the computer and noticed 21.8 as my average speed, right on the plan. I rode 33:05 which was thirty to thirty-five seconds slower than the top guys but I gave that time away on purpose with my plan of spinning up the climbs. I'm pretty confident that had I really thrown down that I could have ridden sub 32:00. T2 was my best transition of my short triathlon career taking a mere eighteen seconds. Visor guy was heading out a few seconds ahead of me so I was extra fired up. Out of the transition I started running as fast as I could which I figured to be about 4:40 mile pace. I knew my plan had worked and that I was in for a fast run leg. I made quick work of visor guy and had a clear road ahead. Suddenly Alive chimed in again like earlier in the summer and all was well in my world. I had a great visual in my head of telescoping away from everyone putting multiple seconds into the field with every stride. Due to construction on the course we had to make an odd detour across a dam on some trails. I figure that it added about thirty to forty seconds to the course from last years race. Crossing the dam a volunteer was holding up two finger telling me that there was still one more athlete up the road. I asked the next volunteer about the gap and he said that it was close to a mile. I had an instant of panic but quickly went back to work killing it with every stride. Even with the doubt I knew that nobody was beating me. Judging from my watch I was on pace to go significantly under fifty- six minutes which would signify a five minute improvement in a year. Nevertheless I drove for home with a fire that my recent issues had tried unsuccessfully to extinguish. Into the crowd and across the line I stopped my watch at 55:38 which given recent circumstances I was thrilled with. My plan had worked to perfection and I managed to execute a great race from start to finish.

Reflecting on the race I was thrilled to bounce back and race up to my potential one last time. My swim and ride were both significantly faster and despite the "longer" run course I was faster there as well. I also destroyed my goal of breaking one hour which I had been thinking about the previous couple of weeks. More than anything however I was excited to feel like myself. I felt strong and in control the entire race which was a huge departure from the past three weeks when I have felt weak and unable to produce any sort of power on demand. Hopefully this race will signify my body turning a corner heading into the fall racing season which is still to be determined at this point.


Cheers,

Mark